ei teagi, mida teha.

huvitav, kas keegi teine teab?

huvitav, kas oleks hea mitte hoolida.

ei loe mu üllad ega võikad teod

Ma näen, kuidas mu maailm tükk tüki haaval koost laguneb. Ja ma ei saa midagi, mitte midagi, teha.

Mis siis saab

Kuidas seda ravida

can I not

inimene peab suutma iseend õnnelikuks muuta.

järeldan, et mul on raskusi inimeseks olemisega.

mis siis ikkagi tähtis on

kell ei olegi nii palju.
23:43

aga

hinges on selline äng ja sügavus, mida tavaliselt sealt vaid väga varastel hommikuhetkedel nagu näiteks 02:24 või 04:51 leida võib.

millal on pisaraid liiga palju
millal on neid liiga vähe

kas on võimalik
armastada
nii palju

kuidas sa üldse
defineerid
seda
armastust

millal on siis

hea.


mis see hea on

kas hingele on hea
tugevus

mis see tugevus on.
kas see tähendab, mitte hoolida
või tähendab see, hoolida.

hoolida.
ja sellega toime tulla.

kuidas mõistust
säilitada

mis see mõistus üldse on

kes üldse ütleb mis siis kõige õigem on
või kõige parem
või kõige tähtsam

ja kuidas leida seda,
rahu.

kas rahu on üldse hea
või
ei?
jah?

mida ma üldse öelda üritan
miks

kas nii tulebki
see rahu
ja ei ole teada
kas see on hea


mis see segadus on
millal on kõik selge
kas kõik saab üldse selge olla
kas nii ei oleks
igav
halb
hea

kas


ja süda ju tuksub
tugevalt
väga
muusika ju mängib
õhk liigub läbi kopsude

ja armastus läbi hinge

mis see siis on

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”

—	Bob Marley